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Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Indigo mmm :) I loooove purple it's only fitting
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Signing your life away
Well we finally signed our closing papers today. 10 years to the day Drew and I first met kind of funny how that worked out. I'm really happy our closing costs went down from 800 - 247$ /ponders what else she can buy for the new place.
I don't want to wait until Sunday to move in but meh... have to wait for friends to come help :). Anyone wanna help me come clean lol!
We've still got to repaint the master bedroom, patch up the linoleum put faceplates on the surround sound speaker wire and do some cleaning before we move in. Unfortunately the people still living there weren't able to move out this past weekend because their new place wasn't ready yet. So we have to wait until after Wednesday to start our projects.
It feels good to be through the rough part of buying a house... I just hope I can get over all I gave up to get the house. I mostly wanted it for my daughter so she has a place to grow up in that's hers, a school to call her own and friends she can grow up with. At 8 she's getting to those critical years where stability are key in a child's life. I'd like to say I'm happy but it's just not the truth, crying inside is more like it but I try to look on the bright side. Life is all about making hard decisions, ones that aren't always just about us when we have to consider others. Growing up even near 30 it never ends, becomming more and more the adult and making harder and harder choices. I definately never expected so much heartache in my adult years ... time only moves forward so we must do the best we can with the cards dealt us.
Hope you all have a fantastic week!
~S~
I don't want to wait until Sunday to move in but meh... have to wait for friends to come help :). Anyone wanna help me come clean lol!
We've still got to repaint the master bedroom, patch up the linoleum put faceplates on the surround sound speaker wire and do some cleaning before we move in. Unfortunately the people still living there weren't able to move out this past weekend because their new place wasn't ready yet. So we have to wait until after Wednesday to start our projects.
It feels good to be through the rough part of buying a house... I just hope I can get over all I gave up to get the house. I mostly wanted it for my daughter so she has a place to grow up in that's hers, a school to call her own and friends she can grow up with. At 8 she's getting to those critical years where stability are key in a child's life. I'd like to say I'm happy but it's just not the truth, crying inside is more like it but I try to look on the bright side. Life is all about making hard decisions, ones that aren't always just about us when we have to consider others. Growing up even near 30 it never ends, becomming more and more the adult and making harder and harder choices. I definately never expected so much heartache in my adult years ... time only moves forward so we must do the best we can with the cards dealt us.
Hope you all have a fantastic week!
~S~
Monday, July 25, 2005
Aliens and asexuality
Ok I'm going to try this again! Being that this was the post I had to re-write.
You're probably wondering what Aliens and asexuality have in common but pull up a chair and read on and you'll hear the interesting storyline that happened between a coworker and I :P
A coworker of mine listens to a radio broadcast in the evenings called coast-to-coast on AM radio. This particular show has a lot of guest speakers on and some of which can be pretty wacky. Anyway, one evening they had on a scientist who was trying to explain why alien encounters all over the world seem to all describe a similar being. There have been scientists who found people with no or very limited access to media ie they've never seen alien pictures of the typical "grey" people describe and yet these people still described very closely the same being. They all seem to describe a genderless, non-featured being that is grey, big eyes and less than 5 fingers.
Well the scientist stated that since the Y chromosome the (male) one was going away in nature in humans that eventually the X chromosome would take over and thusly humans over a million years or so would become asexual and genderless much like the aliens people describe now when they claim to have had an encounter. He came to this conclusion due to the lack of Y chromosomes in humans out there today. I can only guess he means the 52% female to 48% male population.
Well IMO this is due to the fact that since our inception we have hunted, created wars etc and most of the time until recently women have played a small role in these activities. There's at least 2+ wars a year (many more in the world as a whole) this takes its toll century after century. So what do you all think? Are aliens just a future us? Genderless, asexual beings...
Time will only tell :P
~S~
You're probably wondering what Aliens and asexuality have in common but pull up a chair and read on and you'll hear the interesting storyline that happened between a coworker and I :P
A coworker of mine listens to a radio broadcast in the evenings called coast-to-coast on AM radio. This particular show has a lot of guest speakers on and some of which can be pretty wacky. Anyway, one evening they had on a scientist who was trying to explain why alien encounters all over the world seem to all describe a similar being. There have been scientists who found people with no or very limited access to media ie they've never seen alien pictures of the typical "grey" people describe and yet these people still described very closely the same being. They all seem to describe a genderless, non-featured being that is grey, big eyes and less than 5 fingers.
Well the scientist stated that since the Y chromosome the (male) one was going away in nature in humans that eventually the X chromosome would take over and thusly humans over a million years or so would become asexual and genderless much like the aliens people describe now when they claim to have had an encounter. He came to this conclusion due to the lack of Y chromosomes in humans out there today. I can only guess he means the 52% female to 48% male population.
Well IMO this is due to the fact that since our inception we have hunted, created wars etc and most of the time until recently women have played a small role in these activities. There's at least 2+ wars a year (many more in the world as a whole) this takes its toll century after century. So what do you all think? Are aliens just a future us? Genderless, asexual beings...
Time will only tell :P
~S~
QQ ... another post bites the dust
I really hate it when I write out a nice blog ... it's interesting, funny and mildly wacky and then poof .... it's gone generally due to pop up blocker and then you say please allow and then it wipes the screen !!! >.<
/slap IE /slap MS
~S~
/slap IE /slap MS
~S~
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Motivation... or the lack thereof
Well it's Thursday, I took a sick day yesterday to catch up on some sleep.
Got a migraine later that night and took some Imitrex thank God for that stuff.
I was hoping that if I got some good rest I'd come to work today fully ready to actually get something accomplished. I get here, turn on my computer and due to all the "OU" level locking down we can't change our backgrounds, screen savers etc. I immediately just get annoyed and pursue how I can get around these speed bumps.
In the end I just create a local account with administrative rights and use it now instead :P I can have my Einstein inspired background of multiple universes and myAquarium screen saver. I mean really what is the @#$@#$ point to locking things down like a background or screen saver paaaleeese. Stop flexing your @#$@# epeens! No one cares!
Anyhew :P
Well it's 6 days until we close on our house ... the countdown is getting close and much like the feeling of Christmas in July I'm like a kid at night having trouble getting sleep thinking of the millions of things I want to do when we move in, where I want to place furniture etc.
Well back to the lack of ambition at work :P Not sure what my deal is I could have had several projects done by now :P but I just really am at a loss to wish to do them. It's a very lax environment and no one really cares when I get them done but in the past I've always been the one to do the work of 10 people, stay late and come up with innovations. Not really been in the mood here. I'm guessing the lack of good pay have a lot to do with it. Basically there are no incentives for good workers. People GOOD people don't get raises for 2-3 years at a time and that's no joke. So the people doing crap work and the ones doing good work see the same pay regardless. So where exactly is the benefit for working hard?
And this is why government workers, state workers or people paid by the state by funding or otherwise work in the manner they do... and herein lies a major problem. Offer incentives and just imagine the innovations we could see happen in our government, state and local offices.
Just some thoughts to ponder.
~S~
Got a migraine later that night and took some Imitrex thank God for that stuff.
I was hoping that if I got some good rest I'd come to work today fully ready to actually get something accomplished. I get here, turn on my computer and due to all the "OU" level locking down we can't change our backgrounds, screen savers etc. I immediately just get annoyed and pursue how I can get around these speed bumps.
In the end I just create a local account with administrative rights and use it now instead :P I can have my Einstein inspired background of multiple universes and myAquarium screen saver. I mean really what is the @#$@#$ point to locking things down like a background or screen saver paaaleeese. Stop flexing your @#$@# epeens! No one cares!
Anyhew :P
Well it's 6 days until we close on our house ... the countdown is getting close and much like the feeling of Christmas in July I'm like a kid at night having trouble getting sleep thinking of the millions of things I want to do when we move in, where I want to place furniture etc.
Well back to the lack of ambition at work :P Not sure what my deal is I could have had several projects done by now :P but I just really am at a loss to wish to do them. It's a very lax environment and no one really cares when I get them done but in the past I've always been the one to do the work of 10 people, stay late and come up with innovations. Not really been in the mood here. I'm guessing the lack of good pay have a lot to do with it. Basically there are no incentives for good workers. People GOOD people don't get raises for 2-3 years at a time and that's no joke. So the people doing crap work and the ones doing good work see the same pay regardless. So where exactly is the benefit for working hard?
And this is why government workers, state workers or people paid by the state by funding or otherwise work in the manner they do... and herein lies a major problem. Offer incentives and just imagine the innovations we could see happen in our government, state and local offices.
Just some thoughts to ponder.
~S~
Monday, July 18, 2005
London and the link ...
Soo, The Royal Institute of International Affairs (RIIA) in Britain is saying that Britain's support for the US put them at a greater risk from attacks by terrorists.
I say being a freedom loving, open society opens them to possible attacks. Sure in some part the terrorists are able to justify their bombings due to the British involuntary in the middle east but they would do what they do regardless. These people are filled with hate and religious conviction ... a deadly mix. If it wasn't the war in Iraq they would find some other reason to "justify" bombing innocent freedom loving, enjoying people. They are miserable, and truly do not know God and for this I pity them and pray for them that they find "the one TRUE" God before the end of their days. On the terrorist websites they already said they planned to take the fight to Europe. Many of these nations have nothing to do with the Iraq war but yet they're still a target. IMO the RIIA are grasping at straws trying to make "sense" of this senseless act and set their citizens at ease. Are the US populace at ease after 9/11? No! and for good reason. Forever vigilant must we be for the enemy is closer than ever. This threat is here, among us and simply sticking our heads in sand WON'T resolve the problem. Britain needs to grow some and deal with it... you didn't see US just leaving the Middle east in the fray. They continue to try and make it a better place for the innocents living there and spread hope for a people who's been w/out hope for so long and are now losing more hope than ever.
Britain is now saying they will try and pull out of Iraq by 2006. Do they really think that will stop the terrorists? Spain played a very small role in the middle east they got bombed anyway. The bombs found on Paris metro tracks may or may not have been set by Al queda we may never know. I was in Paris during the 2 weeks following the Spain train bombings and when the bombs were found on the tracks in Paris. Nothing like machine gun holding police that roam the streets, the metro cars asking if the bag you're holding is yours o.O to make one feel safe. If that wasn't enough the US had to go and pass the Patriot Act and it's IInd part. Sure I feel safer now ... not! I truly hope all of you reading this at least attempt to follow the Patriot act and it's upcoming renewal. If you don't agree with what's in this act WRITE your congressmen/women. You are constituents and you do HAVE a voice! Vote! Participate! Enjoy your freedom that our founders some of them gave their life for!
Anyhew.. 2hrs of sleep don't bode well for me :P There's my 2 cents about the highly ignorant and cowardly statements of the British RIIA. May their citizens have more sense and cahounas .. if you get my drift.
~S~
I say being a freedom loving, open society opens them to possible attacks. Sure in some part the terrorists are able to justify their bombings due to the British involuntary in the middle east but they would do what they do regardless. These people are filled with hate and religious conviction ... a deadly mix. If it wasn't the war in Iraq they would find some other reason to "justify" bombing innocent freedom loving, enjoying people. They are miserable, and truly do not know God and for this I pity them and pray for them that they find "the one TRUE" God before the end of their days. On the terrorist websites they already said they planned to take the fight to Europe. Many of these nations have nothing to do with the Iraq war but yet they're still a target. IMO the RIIA are grasping at straws trying to make "sense" of this senseless act and set their citizens at ease. Are the US populace at ease after 9/11? No! and for good reason. Forever vigilant must we be for the enemy is closer than ever. This threat is here, among us and simply sticking our heads in sand WON'T resolve the problem. Britain needs to grow some and deal with it... you didn't see US just leaving the Middle east in the fray. They continue to try and make it a better place for the innocents living there and spread hope for a people who's been w/out hope for so long and are now losing more hope than ever.
Britain is now saying they will try and pull out of Iraq by 2006. Do they really think that will stop the terrorists? Spain played a very small role in the middle east they got bombed anyway. The bombs found on Paris metro tracks may or may not have been set by Al queda we may never know. I was in Paris during the 2 weeks following the Spain train bombings and when the bombs were found on the tracks in Paris. Nothing like machine gun holding police that roam the streets, the metro cars asking if the bag you're holding is yours o.O to make one feel safe. If that wasn't enough the US had to go and pass the Patriot Act and it's IInd part. Sure I feel safer now ... not! I truly hope all of you reading this at least attempt to follow the Patriot act and it's upcoming renewal. If you don't agree with what's in this act WRITE your congressmen/women. You are constituents and you do HAVE a voice! Vote! Participate! Enjoy your freedom that our founders some of them gave their life for!
Anyhew.. 2hrs of sleep don't bode well for me :P There's my 2 cents about the highly ignorant and cowardly statements of the British RIIA. May their citizens have more sense and cahounas .. if you get my drift.
~S~
Monday, July 11, 2005
Packing....
Sifting through the mountain of boxes....
finding hidden treasures left behind after the years....
we struggle to box neatly and label well our belongings....
"FRAGILE" we write in hopes our friends won't break the contents....
Hopeful...
Sore....
Tired....
A sadness overwhelms at times....
to see the place we will leave behind....
then, to see the end in near...
to know that soon a new journey will begin...
Relief
In then end all a cycle come full circle until it occurs again.
finding hidden treasures left behind after the years....
we struggle to box neatly and label well our belongings....
"FRAGILE" we write in hopes our friends won't break the contents....
Hopeful...
Sore....
Tired....
A sadness overwhelms at times....
to see the place we will leave behind....
then, to see the end in near...
to know that soon a new journey will begin...
Relief
In then end all a cycle come full circle until it occurs again.
Friday, July 08, 2005
Some strange ...or hate for woman?
http://www.thechump.com/neverendingfall.swf
things of this nature tend to turn me off.
First off why is she only clad in a bikini?
Why not a man, animal or inanimate object?
Just because you're having problems with your wife, gf or mom... doesn't mean you have to subject us to tasteless flash novelties.
If I wanted a lady to play with in a bikini I'll get one of those pens from one of the Lillian vernon magazines :P
This guy is semi-talented.. yet definitely having some issues with women. Sophomoric at best.
~Z~
things of this nature tend to turn me off.
First off why is she only clad in a bikini?
Why not a man, animal or inanimate object?
Just because you're having problems with your wife, gf or mom... doesn't mean you have to subject us to tasteless flash novelties.
If I wanted a lady to play with in a bikini I'll get one of those pens from one of the Lillian vernon magazines :P
This guy is semi-talented.. yet definitely having some issues with women. Sophomoric at best.
~Z~
T...G...I...F <3
Finally, we're at the end of the week! A long week for me that's for sure.
Yesterday was busy and solemn as I have some friends that live near London. They're all ok but what is wrong with these people my God!
I absolutely think it's pathetic that people have it in their sick mind that they need to on "behalf of God" create mass desctruction on their percieved threat of an innocent populace. Maybe they need to get out their Quran and re-read the old testament section. I seem to remember God striking down several places, doling out his wrath when he felt like it. Considering he can wipe out all of creation on his own Who T F do they think they are that God needs THEM to do what he could do with a flick of his pinky? So basically they believe they're more able than God? More capable?
Interesting.. considering they are waging this war in the name of God... ironic? you decide.
~Z~
Yesterday was busy and solemn as I have some friends that live near London. They're all ok but what is wrong with these people my God!
I absolutely think it's pathetic that people have it in their sick mind that they need to on "behalf of God" create mass desctruction on their percieved threat of an innocent populace. Maybe they need to get out their Quran and re-read the old testament section. I seem to remember God striking down several places, doling out his wrath when he felt like it. Considering he can wipe out all of creation on his own Who T F do they think they are that God needs THEM to do what he could do with a flick of his pinky? So basically they believe they're more able than God? More capable?
Interesting.. considering they are waging this war in the name of God... ironic? you decide.
~Z~
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Sugar and Spice...
And everything nice?
Forget everything your family and friends told you ... we women aren't made of all that but what does come to mind is:
bloating.. aching...troubles of the family, laundry, kids and a plethora of other pressing items needing "her" attention. Add in the husband who feels neglected, the pets who didn't get fed until too late again. Parents that pressure "her" and feel she should conform etc etc.
One of the biggest things I was asked after I had our daughter was "So you ARE staying home with her right?" to which I replied for a while yes but after breast feeding I plan on going back to work full-time. They usually gave a surprised look and felt too uncomfortable to continue the conversation. Why must my motherly skills be based on being a stay at home mother? For all they know I could be one of "those" people who stays home, lets all chores pile up, sit on the couch watching soap operas and worries about what Mrs. Hoover is doing across the street while the kid sits on the floor in a dirty diaper.
Just for those reading this ... these are things that were issues for me about 8.5 yrs ago however, I see it still today and just felt like commenting on it :P
In our society as it is ... most families both parents have to work in order to make ends meet. For sure we're in that situation. Between kids, debt, utilities, rent, vehicles etc we're spread so thin it's not funny. Add in the expense of a new house and now you've got that as well. It's no surprise in my area why there are so many houses in foreclosure where the moms in their capris stroll up to pick up their children from school at 2:45pm, toss their hair flirtatiously in the wind and talk of the soaps that were on earlier and how they are missing one of their favorite shows. I say you should have invested in a good after school program, gone to work and maybe you wouldn't lose your Better Homes and Garden perfect house :P. These people tend to really think they are better than everyone else. They feel that since they "sacrifice" a career to stay home they are entitled to be praised for everything. Proove to me you're a GENUINE stay at home parent. One that is actively involved in their children's lives... go back to work when they're in school. I never did understand the fascination with staying at home AFTER they are in elementary school. Ok maybe the first year.. but come on ... until say 5th or 6th grade.
Go to college... get a degree you could do all kinds of things while they're in school.
Soooo a friend wanted some more blooggging.. hopefully this will quell his thirst for a time :)
I'm achy.. I'm uhm.. well we won't get into it atm but if you're a guy be happy you're a guy :P
ciao
~Z~
Forget everything your family and friends told you ... we women aren't made of all that but what does come to mind is:
bloating.. aching...troubles of the family, laundry, kids and a plethora of other pressing items needing "her" attention. Add in the husband who feels neglected, the pets who didn't get fed until too late again. Parents that pressure "her" and feel she should conform etc etc.
One of the biggest things I was asked after I had our daughter was "So you ARE staying home with her right?" to which I replied for a while yes but after breast feeding I plan on going back to work full-time. They usually gave a surprised look and felt too uncomfortable to continue the conversation. Why must my motherly skills be based on being a stay at home mother? For all they know I could be one of "those" people who stays home, lets all chores pile up, sit on the couch watching soap operas and worries about what Mrs. Hoover is doing across the street while the kid sits on the floor in a dirty diaper.
Just for those reading this ... these are things that were issues for me about 8.5 yrs ago however, I see it still today and just felt like commenting on it :P
In our society as it is ... most families both parents have to work in order to make ends meet. For sure we're in that situation. Between kids, debt, utilities, rent, vehicles etc we're spread so thin it's not funny. Add in the expense of a new house and now you've got that as well. It's no surprise in my area why there are so many houses in foreclosure where the moms in their capris stroll up to pick up their children from school at 2:45pm, toss their hair flirtatiously in the wind and talk of the soaps that were on earlier and how they are missing one of their favorite shows. I say you should have invested in a good after school program, gone to work and maybe you wouldn't lose your Better Homes and Garden perfect house :P. These people tend to really think they are better than everyone else. They feel that since they "sacrifice" a career to stay home they are entitled to be praised for everything. Proove to me you're a GENUINE stay at home parent. One that is actively involved in their children's lives... go back to work when they're in school. I never did understand the fascination with staying at home AFTER they are in elementary school. Ok maybe the first year.. but come on ... until say 5th or 6th grade.
Go to college... get a degree you could do all kinds of things while they're in school.
Soooo a friend wanted some more blooggging.. hopefully this will quell his thirst for a time :)
I'm achy.. I'm uhm.. well we won't get into it atm but if you're a guy be happy you're a guy :P
ciao
~Z~
Monday, July 04, 2005
Expectations ...
It's the 4th!
We got word about our house today. It's ours! After months of waiting and waiting it's finally time to get the paperwork started and sign our life away. I'm relieved, stressed and a bit scared all at the same time.
I'm a bit sad I'll be giving up my personal haven to have one cohesive house but it's completely worth all the trouble. At least Alexis already has an idea of how she wants to set up her room, her game room etc :P She seems to have enough ideas for all of us. Growing up fast and starting 3rd grade soon who'd of believed she'll be nine this December.
Called my mom, my friends, my family and of course they're all excited for us and always have lots of good advice. It will be really nice to finally have a decent place to host the large Thanksgiving dinners I love to have each year :). Something about having all your friends over and family then eating a large dinner, maybe playing a round of trivial persuit or two ... then plopping on the couch completely regretting having had that LAST piece of turkey and lamenting even thinking about the yet to be eaten pies.
Anyhew.. dreams of grand pianos in the formal living room, flagstone patios and granite counter tops will dance through my head as I attempt to find sleep tonight. Also, the stress from the day, the 2 large assignments for my college class I've yet to do that are due on Weds. Sometimes I wonder how I'll get it all done but some how some say they always do.
Boxes ... boxes and MORE boxes I need lots of boxes. Talked to the nice man at Walmart and he told me to speak to a manager and they'd probably put some boxes for me on the side. That's awesome lord knows I need boxes! Just think could save some trees using already used boxes :)
Well enough for the first blog that prob few will read :)
Ciao and have a great 4th!
~S~
We got word about our house today. It's ours! After months of waiting and waiting it's finally time to get the paperwork started and sign our life away. I'm relieved, stressed and a bit scared all at the same time.
I'm a bit sad I'll be giving up my personal haven to have one cohesive house but it's completely worth all the trouble. At least Alexis already has an idea of how she wants to set up her room, her game room etc :P She seems to have enough ideas for all of us. Growing up fast and starting 3rd grade soon who'd of believed she'll be nine this December.
Called my mom, my friends, my family and of course they're all excited for us and always have lots of good advice. It will be really nice to finally have a decent place to host the large Thanksgiving dinners I love to have each year :). Something about having all your friends over and family then eating a large dinner, maybe playing a round of trivial persuit or two ... then plopping on the couch completely regretting having had that LAST piece of turkey and lamenting even thinking about the yet to be eaten pies.
Anyhew.. dreams of grand pianos in the formal living room, flagstone patios and granite counter tops will dance through my head as I attempt to find sleep tonight. Also, the stress from the day, the 2 large assignments for my college class I've yet to do that are due on Weds. Sometimes I wonder how I'll get it all done but some how some say they always do.
Boxes ... boxes and MORE boxes I need lots of boxes. Talked to the nice man at Walmart and he told me to speak to a manager and they'd probably put some boxes for me on the side. That's awesome lord knows I need boxes! Just think could save some trees using already used boxes :)
Well enough for the first blog that prob few will read :)
Ciao and have a great 4th!
~S~
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